12 31 2012

At my writing table watching the furry moon. It moves behind my neighbor's house . Just a chip off the end. Smoky aura. Fog clouds illuminated? No more moon. "Lune ou pas lune, nous nous en fichons!"

Doesn't writing table sound better than computer desk...? Recent Utne Mag featues 2 articles--click your app and there is no app for happiness.

I want to finish my current read--"John Reed: The Romantic Revolutionary" before the end of the year. I am trudging through his life just like the 30 or so lives I slogged through since November 2011.  I am acquiring patience as I read each one. Simone, Sartre and company walked all over Europe. People walked. No big deal. Took trains and cars and buggies when any of those luxuries were available. Simone loved walking by herself. Walking for hours and days and weeks at a time. If they had to improvise on lodgings. This wasn't a problem, either.

Bliss (in progress)

Trance overwhelmed 
erase outside
open inside
sink down 

roots grounded 
spread down

mother holds

limitless ecstasy

float in
spirit descends slowly

oceanic flow encircles
vivid transmission 
the etheric bodies
intense conjoining
pured in Bliss
pull away
or come watch the show
ride on pony
legs quake
ankles gripped 
tightly from climb
Shiva and Shakti
embraces us with Bliss
surrender to climax
power overcomes
ether cradles
luminous faith

wendy spends a summer with stalin

regeneration chaos

Wendy and Stalin playing

so i wonder how many suicides or lost minds the banks have led people to by ruining this country with greed and dirty souls?  but feed the masses that the real problem causing the most trouble are the immigrants  is there ever going to be time in this country's history that the poor aren't the problem but the rich  one exception would be those welfare baby mommies riding around in their gold-plated Mercedes  now that's where we should be spending money  rutting those cheaters out 

Cruel kindness gives gardens, trees, solitude, green, shade
Takes away -- no trespassing...not good enough as usual
Found quickly as unimportant -- so disposable
This time lost opening the gate  but I am entwined
poisoned with ivy in my eyes mouth ears nose brain vagina anus

so this is what you do
offer possibilities
out of the trap
and snap it shut it 
Karma Change
a new trap provided 

lili's golden spider dream

golden spiders descend
web and weave
spin and stalk
still
track and tear apart
hold focus in all 8 directions
intense situational awareness

everyday my work is to stay alive
protect my self from people and myself
who is scarier
they are they all turn out to be frightening
if it means voicing
then closing
             the crusty windows
             peeling doors